i’m even misunderstood by the person who told me that i was misunderstood by people.
being misunderstood by people who don’t know know or understand me doesn’t matter to me and i can careless but being misunderstood by someone who was close to you hurts like hell… it’s like “i thought you would know me better that to know that’s not how i really am”
i wanna explain but at the same time i don’t, will it make things better? will it make a difference? maybe not but maybe it’ll make me feel better knowing you understand? should i even bother….
I guess being with someone just simply for the fact that they make you happy isn’t enough for people anymore.. or maybe its enough for me and i expected it to be enough for you too or maybe it is enough for you but I just don’t make you happy anymore and all those things were just excuses or maybe they werent..
Either way, we’re not together anymore and we’re never gonna be and I just have to accept it and stop wondering what I did wrong or what you did wrong.
If you can ask someone what did they DO for you than you can answer when they ask you what they DIDN’T do for you.
Like it’s so annoying how you’re always like “you did nothing for me” and then when i ask you about it you can’t even answer what you wanted me to do that i didn’t do.
I still wanna know what it is that i did wrong for future references, for my other relationships or whatever it is that’ll happen in the future so i won’t make the same mistakes again. You don’t wanna be with me anymore, fine, but tell me what i did wrong because i just wanna know.
It honestly all just seems like excuses to me because i know for FACT that i did everything, well maybe not EVERYTHING but i did ALOT.
"You did nothing for me" "You did nothing for me to like you"
I can say the same thing about you. All i wanted from you was for you to be there for me and that’s what’s most important to me and you were never ONCE even there for me so of course to me it felt like you did nothing for me. That’s why im always saying that you dont ever do anything for me. Taking me places, making food for me etc is a bunch of shit that i don’t care about and if you think that doing those things for me and thinking that you did “everything” for me than i don’t even know what to think.
So if anything, YOU did nothing for me, you don’t pay for us whenever we go out to eat because i pay for everything, you don’t buy me things besides the fucking Naked 2 that i paid HALF of but i never used those things against you because i don’t care about that shit. I even told you that i would move in with you so that i can help YOU pay for rent so that maybe it’ll help you be a tiny bit less stressed out. So don’t you ever have the audacity to say that i did NOTHING for you.
Yeah i can be pretty bratty and demanding and a cry baby and my personality somewhat fucking sucks. And yeah you never complain about anything about me but honestly, i don’t ever think i’m “too good” for anyone but you’re starting to make me feel like im “too good” for you because you didn’t appreciate the little things that i DID do for you.
The one thing that you said to me that i honestly thought was SO fucked up but i NEVER said anything to you about it was when we were on the car ride home from HMART and you told me that i don’t benefit you in the future, that you didn’t want to take care of me for the rest of your life. That’s basically like a slap in the face to me and that you basically said “You’re going nowhere in life” to me. You’re not good looking, you don’t have money, you’re not in school, YOU don’t benefit me in any kind of fucking way but if you’re gonna use those things against me then fuck you, you are a shitty ass human being. Do you think you’re better than me? The only thing that still makes me like you is just simply the fact that you make me happy whenever i’m around you and THAT’S IT, there’s only one reason, thats why im still sticking around and i still want to be with you.
God, this world is so shitty and people are shitty and I don’t wanna believe that you’re one of them. So please tell me that i’m wrong and you’re not like that and it’s just me being stupid.