"Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence."
If im by myself for too long i start to get used to how i am when im alone, so when i finally hang out with people again i feel really awkward and distant from everyone but then i always force myself to overcome it then i start acting like how i usually do or else i will literally sit there feeling awkward as hell. I feel really distant from people and lose that feeling that we’re friends easily unless we’re super super close or something..
No one ever believes me when i say im a shy person, I FORCE MYSELF TO TALK TO YALL AND BE AN OUTGOING PERSON LOL .. i blame my grandma for the cause of this because i used to live with her growing up and she didnt know english so i was always the one that had to talk to strangers for her and pretend im not shy and it would literally make me want to cry every time lol but then if she never needed me to do that i would’ve probably never made any friends and wouldn’t say anything to anyone unless you talk to me first
Well idk if i would ever label myself as a shy person? i have no problem telling someone what i want or how i feel.. I JUST DONT LIKE MEETING NEW PEOPLE AND TALKING TO STRANGERS LOL like if we went to a new place together i would tell you to walk in first , idk im weird, im socially awkward
I always force myself to get over it and be myself when i meet someone new and i end up talking waaaaay too much and act really weird T-T
WHAT THE HELL AM I RAMBLING ON ABOUT…. this post makes no sense
No matter what happened between us, or how long its been since we last talked, I still care, I wanna know how you’re doing and feeling. I don’t stalk you but just enough to know you’re okay because you’re still that person I miss and the person who will always be in my heart